The Trial of Trust

As much as I would love to take credit for this writing I can not, it was sent to me from a dear friend. I wept as I read the words as I can relate to the continual desire to trust in spite of feeling naked in the middle of winter. Spring will one day come, until then I stand in the cold and wait....

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"I worry too much. Autumn trees ask me not to worry. They, like Jesus, suggest trust rather than worry.So often in autumn I want to go lean my head against a tree and ask what it feels like to lose so much, to be so empty, so detached, to take off one's shoes that well, and then simply to stand and wait for God's refilling. It sounds so simple, so easy. It isn't easy. But it's possible

Slowly
she celebrated the sacrament of letting go
first she surrendered her green
then the orange, yellow, and red
finally she let go of her brown
shedding her last leaf
she stood empty and silent, stripped bare
Leaning against the winter sky
she began her vigil of trust.

And Jesus said:

Why do you worry about clothes? Remember the flowers growing in the fields: they do not fret about what to wear: yet I assure you not even Solomon in all his royal robes was dressed like one of these.

Shedding her last leaf
she watched its journey to the ground
She stood in silence
wearing the color of emptiness
her branches wondering
How do you give shade with so much gone?

And Jesus said;

Do not be troubled or needlessly concerned.

And then,
the sacrament of waiting began.
The sunrise and sunset watched with tenderness
Clothing her with silhouettes
they kept her hope alive.
They helped her understand that
her vulnerability
her dependence and need
her emptiness
her readiness to receive
were giving her a new kind of beauty.
Every morning and every evening
they stood in silence
and celebrated together
the sacrament of waiting!

And Jesus said;

Now if that is how God cares for the wild flowers in the fields which are here today and gone tomorrow, will He not all the more care for you...?"