Safety, control and other myths

Yesterday I watched "The Surrogates." A futuristic movie where everyone has a robot and these robots do the day to day bidding for their humans. These high tech mannequins have perfect bodies without working out. They feel no pain so they can take great risks without any consequences. Their job is to make life better for their owners. People can have all the pleasure but no pain with a surrogate.

The movie reminds me of how we want life to be better then it is. We really do want risks without consequences, pleasure without pain; We want to be safe. We want to be in control. I want to be in control.

Who matters....

When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand.” -Henri Nouwen

For Today-

“.....every time there are losses there are choices to
be made. You choose to live your losses as passages to anger, blame,
hatred, depression and resentment or you choose to let these losses be passages to something new, something wider, and deeper”. -Henri Nouwen

As of late I have been digging Henri's work.

Wrestlings

"People who read your ideas tend to think that your writings reflect your life."
— Henri J.M. Nouwen

How I love to theorize about what makes life work-
" I know the answers I've given them all"

But theory can not override experience-
"But suddenly now I feel so small"

The harsh lessons of life we do not forget-
"Shaken down to the cavity of my soul"

The answers do not come easy when life does not make sense-
"I know the doctrine and theology but right now they don't mean much to me"

Where do I go from here?-
"This time there's only one thing I've go to know. Do I trust you Lord?"

Time will tell.

What about the heart?

"The heart has its reasons of which reason knows nothing."-Blaise Pascal

Home

I am free once again. Out of the hospital today after 11 long days. Grateful to be home. Four more days of IV's in front of me but the bulk of it is behind me. Grateful for the familiar noise of home- Play station blaring from the TV, cat purring beside me, children eagerly anticipating the sequel to Iron Man. Tonight life is simple and good.

A Game of Cards

"If life is like a deck of cards, then God is always the wild card....... This is why trust, in the important matters, always feels like risk and why it entails great courage."
-Paula Rinehart