Resting

This season is good. I have spent lots of time laying in the hammock, soaking up the sun, listening to my children's laughter. I am reading good books, watching the clouds drift by, waiting for the lightning bugs to burst on the scene in the cool of the evening. Ah, the long, lazy days of summer.

I am resting and recovering from the last 12 months: 6 hospitalizations, 4 out patient surgeries, 5 weeks of pulmonary rehab. It has been an extremely challenging year; Too much sickness, back to back with no recovery time, too much stress, too, too much.

There were times I did not think I would survive (literally). It feels good to be alive.

Where are we going?

The endless cycle of idea and actions, endless invention, endless experiment,
brings knowledge of motion, but none of stillness, knowledge of speech, but not of silence,
knowledge of words, and ignorance of The Word.

All our knowledge brings us nearer to our ignorance,
all our ignorance brings us nearer to death.

Where is the life we have lost in living?
Where is the wisdom we have lost in knowledge?
Where is the knowledge we have lost in information?

-T.S. Eliot, 1934

The Cost

"Yeah, life goes on, long after the thrill of living is gone." -J.C. Mellancamp, 1982 "Happy are those that dream dreams and are willing to pay the price. "-Author Unknown "Same old song, just a drop of water in an endless sea, all we do crumbles to the ground though we refuse to see. All we are is dust in the wind." -Kansas, 1977 "Carry on my wayward Son, they'll be peace when you are done. Lay your weary head to rest don't you cry no more. Carry on, You will always remember, carry on, nothing equals the splendor, now your life's no longer empty, surely heaven waits for you." -Kansas, 1976